posted 6 hours ago @ 17 Apr 2014 with 2 notes
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Yes, as we all know that things aren’t capable of changing itself, it remains constant as it is. When you leave a furniture in a room, it wouldn’t change a bit nor move from one place to another. But people imminently change, it’s undeniable and inevitable. You will notice that some of the people you know aren’t the same as before. They grow, they progress, they change from time to time, like you do. Maybe the person you love will change by tomorrow. Not the way they look but maybe the way they act, who knows? Maybe the one you’re sleeping with right now, will never be the same person when you wake up to. Not literally, but if know what I mean? They’ll change. They can be so good to you for now, but you shouldn’t expect them to be as good on the next day. They can be mad at you or mad at anything, but that won’t last long. They’ll be happy most times, but there will be times they’ll experience loneliness and sadness. They will be as alive and hopeful, but suddenly they’ll get tired.
So don’t blame anyone because they have changed so much. To be honest, no one remains the same, and not even the climate. They are not the same person you’ve met before, and they will never be. You just have to accept the change, embrace it and love it. If you really love the person, no matter what the changes in his/her life, you will accept it. That’s what love is all about.

posted 7 hours ago @ 17 Apr 2014 with 1 note
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Sometimes, you ask for words to be spoken not because you need it, but you just want to hear those words hoping that it will comfort you and not to destroy you.

» N.C.  
posted 7 hours ago @ 17 Apr 2014 with 4 notes
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April 15, 2014

Dear Guia,
One year it has been, since we ventured to enter in this kind of relationship. Today is such an inspiring delight for both of us. I consider this day as one of the biggest accomplishments, that we have made this far. I know recently had been rough, and challenges along the way had been tough. We both know it wasn’t easy to be in this kind of relationship where we don’t see each other face-to-face, where we only talk over the line, where we couldn’t exchange warm hugs and soft kisses, we may be too far from that as of now, we may be longing for physical touch and presence, but in the whole beautiful year we’ve been together in thoughts and hearts were truly genuine and amazing. I couldn’t ask for anything but to be with you not only in my dreams, but beside me all the time. I cherish this very moment to tell you how you made my life perfect by being part of it. We may have ups and downs and whether we had good or bad times, you are still my number one absolute favorite person and I will always give you the love and attention that you deserve. I want you to know that no matter how hard and undeniably challenging our situation be, I am always here for you, I will be your best friend and lover at the same time. I just want you to know that I may not be the best person in this world, but I will try my hardest to be the right one for you. I’ll fight for you even if we may reach the edge of the world. I will comfort you and be your everything to hold, and I will never leave you for you are what I need and love the most in this planet. 
It seems like yesterday that we started to know each other, but as our love grows, we have seen each other progress in maturity as well. We have seen how we strive to be the best for one another, how our strengths and weaknesses battles up against us sometimes, how we have learned so much together and how we create a better future just by cultivating an unconditional love and understanding each of our imperfection every day.
You know what, I can’t believe I’m finally saying this already, HAPPY FIRST YEAR ANNIVERSARY, Baby! I am beyond ecstatic right now, that we’ve finally reached a year, isn’t it great? You should also know this, YOU ARE THE BEST THING THAT’S EVER BEEN MINE! I thanked God from the start and every day since, for letting me have you, such a one of a kind person. Who would have thought we made it this far? Even some people around us said before, we would’t last, this LDR kind of thing wouldn’t last that long, but look at us, one year later and getting stronger and stronger. Time and fate have been extremely good for us, that they didn’t let anything destroy nor separate us further than the distance itself. I love you baby, so much that I couldn’t imagine my life without you in it anymore. I love you that I became even more attached and devoted to you that I couldn’t see myself being away from you completely. I couldn’t imagine anything without you, it feels like a total devastation if that would happen. Though, I apologize from the bottom of my heart if there were times I have made you cry and made you sad, if there were times that were empty and dark. I’m so sorry for every undesirable moment in the last 12 months, for making you sad sometimes. I’m so sorry for those moments that you weren’t happy because we argued a lot, but I’m thankful that you didn’t give up on me. I couldn’t promise anything but all I can do is to prove to you that I will never hurt you again in my intention. I thank you for everything you have done for me to be happy, sometimes you made me giddy unexpectedly. Thank you for all the love and attention you’ve given me. Thank you for understanding me and for being so passionately forgiving. Thank you for accepting and supporting me all through out the year. Thank you for letting me realize that without you, I would be crippled and broken, that’s why I needed you and your love as my backbone.
Now, let’s celebrate for this wonderful day and let’s forget all the bad memories that happened in this past year. Let’s just remember all the happy moments we’ve shared and let’s continue to create many more, for more and more years to come. I love you! Happy First Anniversary again, My Love! :)
P.S. Sorry for the late present. I made a special book just for you. Made up of all our love letters and emails and every memorable conversations for the past 12 months. I hope you’ll enjoy scanning and reading through it. I love you dear. :*

Love, Nic

April 15, 2014

Dear Guia,

One year it has been, since we ventured to enter in this kind of relationship. Today is such an inspiring delight for both of us. I consider this day as one of the biggest accomplishments, that we have made this far. I know recently had been rough, and challenges along the way had been tough. We both know it wasn’t easy to be in this kind of relationship where we don’t see each other face-to-face, where we only talk over the line, where we couldn’t exchange warm hugs and soft kisses, we may be too far from that as of now, we may be longing for physical touch and presence, but in the whole beautiful year we’ve been together in thoughts and hearts were truly genuine and amazing. I couldn’t ask for anything but to be with you not only in my dreams, but beside me all the time. I cherish this very moment to tell you how you made my life perfect by being part of it. We may have ups and downs and whether we had good or bad times, you are still my number one absolute favorite person and I will always give you the love and attention that you deserve. I want you to know that no matter how hard and undeniably challenging our situation be, I am always here for you, I will be your best friend and lover at the same time. I just want you to know that I may not be the best person in this world, but I will try my hardest to be the right one for you. I’ll fight for you even if we may reach the edge of the world. I will comfort you and be your everything to hold, and I will never leave you for you are what I need and love the most in this planet. 

It seems like yesterday that we started to know each other, but as our love grows, we have seen each other progress in maturity as well. We have seen how we strive to be the best for one another, how our strengths and weaknesses battles up against us sometimes, how we have learned so much together and how we create a better future just by cultivating an unconditional love and understanding each of our imperfection every day.

You know what, I can’t believe I’m finally saying this already, HAPPY FIRST YEAR ANNIVERSARY, Baby! I am beyond ecstatic right now, that we’ve finally reached a year, isn’t it great? You should also know this, YOU ARE THE BEST THING THAT’S EVER BEEN MINE! I thanked God from the start and every day since, for letting me have you, such a one of a kind person. Who would have thought we made it this far? Even some people around us said before, we would’t last, this LDR kind of thing wouldn’t last that long, but look at us, one year later and getting stronger and stronger. Time and fate have been extremely good for us, that they didn’t let anything destroy nor separate us further than the distance itself. I love you baby, so much that I couldn’t imagine my life without you in it anymore. I love you that I became even more attached and devoted to you that I couldn’t see myself being away from you completely. I couldn’t imagine anything without you, it feels like a total devastation if that would happen. Though, I apologize from the bottom of my heart if there were times I have made you cry and made you sad, if there were times that were empty and dark. I’m so sorry for every undesirable moment in the last 12 months, for making you sad sometimes. I’m so sorry for those moments that you weren’t happy because we argued a lot, but I’m thankful that you didn’t give up on me. I couldn’t promise anything but all I can do is to prove to you that I will never hurt you again in my intention. I thank you for everything you have done for me to be happy, sometimes you made me giddy unexpectedly. Thank you for all the love and attention you’ve given me. Thank you for understanding me and for being so passionately forgiving. Thank you for accepting and supporting me all through out the year. Thank you for letting me realize that without you, I would be crippled and broken, that’s why I needed you and your love as my backbone.

Now, let’s celebrate for this wonderful day and let’s forget all the bad memories that happened in this past year. Let’s just remember all the happy moments we’ve shared and let’s continue to create many more, for more and more years to come. I love you! Happy First Anniversary again, My Love! :)

P.S. Sorry for the late present. I made a special book just for you. Made up of all our love letters and emails and every memorable conversations for the past 12 months. I hope you’ll enjoy scanning and reading through it. I love you dear. :*

Love, Nic

posted 1 day ago @ 15 Apr 2014 with 3 notes
xpersonal xfirst year anniversary xldr xyay we made it this far xlove letter

Finally, aalis na rin ako sa bahay na to. Hindi dahil sa ayaw ko na dito, kundi dahil gusto ko ng maging malaya at maging independent na tao. Ayoko ng dumepende sa iba, gusto ko ng magkusa at magbanat ng mga buto, ng manok at baboy, de joke. Pero mukhang pumayag na si mudra na magmove out na ako at maghanap ng apartment, 300 miles away from home. Baka between May and June na ako lilipat. Hopefully, hindi magbago ang isip nila. Kaya ko naman ng sarili ko eh, kaya ko ng magluto ng piniritong itlog at hotdog at kung ano ano pang microwavable dish. Diba? Mabubuhay naman na siguro ako nun. Sipag at tiyaga na lang ang kelangan ko para sa sarili ko. May kaklase kasi akong nakatira sa San Antonio, 5 hours drive mula dito. Magkasama na lang kaming magrerenta ng apartment, para makatipid. Magkasama rin kaming maghahanap ng trabaho doon, marami kasing mga oportunidad doon na hindi ko kayang palampasin. Hindi ko makikita ang oportunidad kung andito lang ako sa saya ng nanay ko haha Kaya ayun, parang it’s a great deal naman para sakin. Oh siya! Hanggang sa muli. Paalam! :)

posted 4 days ago @ 13 Apr 2014 with 2 notes
xkwento ko xtagalog xpersonal xmaglalayas na ko! yay!

Last night, I’ve read a news about an old man, a registered sex offender who lived in Miami. Who tried to burn the house of his neighbor because he despise them for being lesbians. Those ladies have 8 children. The news said that the old man doesn’t approve the kind of relationship his neighbor have and that he believes that they don’t deserve to have kids, so he tried to put them on fire.
Fortunately, another neighbor saw what he did and alert the ladies and the kids who had been awaken by a loud scream by their neighbors. The old man got arrested afterwards.

The heck?? So is it okay to be a rapist than to be gay or lesbian? How about those 8 children, who almost died because of his stupidity. God, please bless these kind of people. I couldn’t say a thing anymore, I feel sad for the couple with 8 children who are now homeless. -_-

posted 1 week ago @ 07 Apr 2014 with 2 notes
xpersonal thoughts xnews xbigotry xlgbt xhypocrisy

I know this is an old issue, but this issue continues to live on..
I have a huge respect for everybody’s belief, even if I may not agree on every bit of it. I respect people’s perspective even if it’s different from mine. I respect all political preferences and religions, but I have lost my damn respect in Westboro Baptist Church a long time ago until now. I have not regain any respect for them. Is it bad that I don’t like nor I respect everything that they do and believe in? Maybe I’m that bad, but I don’t really hate them, I just don’t like them at all. Because if I hate them, I will let myself go down to their level, which I won’t allow.

Why I don’t like them?
If you have seen few of their videos on Youtube before, if you have heard and watched the news about them getting attention and spreading hate, you’d know what I’m talking about. I’m pretty sure their reasons are illogical and twisted, they are all unbelievable, bunch of lunatics.
Who, in the right state of mind would go to a funeral of a dead soldier, picketing on a funeral without a bit of respect to those grieving families, just to spread hate, holding up signs such as “Thank God for dead soldier” or “Thank God for 9/11” or “God hates you” “You’re going to hell”
They don’t even respect those dead soldiers who fought for their own country. They believe that there were no innocent people who died in 9/11. They even thanked God for the one who shot those innocent kids in Sandy Hook. What kind of logic is that? What kind of people are they? I have lost my hope in humanity if they support WBC. I know, they have the right to freedom of speech, freedom to hate, but they don’t have the right to picket on a damn funeral. They also spread hate against homosexual, as usual. They used the word fags, but they could not defend or justify their beliefs at all. They will lecture you what they’ve read on their scriptures, otherwise they’ll despise you. One of them said “God doesn’t hate you because you’re a fag, you are a fag because God hates you” hahaha I was like, cracking when I’ve heard him saying that. WTH dude, are you even serious? Do you know what you’re talking about?
One more thing I don’t like about them, is that they raise their kids just to spread hate. They brainwash them to believe that God hates everyone, that God will not forgive those who don’t repent. They even twist the song Godbless America and We are the world and replace the lyrics with hateful lyrics. There were several occasions that their kids was almost got hit by a car because people got mad at what they did. Some people chased and threaten them, but they won’t stop, until one of them get killed, maybe. They doesn’t realize that they’re putting their kids in danger. What kind of parents are they? One of the members questioned their hypocrisy as to why they’re doing all of those things, and she got kicked out of her church and even from her own family. Now she’s living happy with no hatred in her heart, but her family still believes she’s going to hell for not following what the scriptures said, what’s sad is that they never missed their own daughter.

Oh I don’t know what else to say.. If you are curious about them, just look them up on Youtube. They are pretty popular, that’s what they want, to get attention.
I may be very bad to say this, but I feel relieved that Fred Phelps died 3 weeks ago. He’s the founder of Westboro Baptist Church, he taught his members to spread hate and that his twisted teachings shall live on. He was even kicked out by his own church before he died lol I don’t know, but it’s kind of funny to me haha

You know what? I’m willing to go to hell rather than going to heaven with bunch of idiots, bigots and hypocrites like them. haha Okay, I’m done with this topic. Thanks for reading until the end though. :)

posted 1 week ago @ 07 Apr 2014 with 1 note
xmy opinion xwestboro baptist church xwbc xfred phelps xlunatics

I may not see you everyday with my eyes, but I can feel you in every beat of my heart.

posted 1 week ago @ 05 Apr 2014 with 58 notes
xlove xquotes xldr xlong distance

Selfie naman muna bago kain!! haha Puro selfie lately ang pinopost ko. Wala eh, sabaw eh, gaya nito. Di ko lang nafull-shot yung mukha ko, kasi masisira ang maganda kong smile. wahaha

Sa kakapanood ko ng korean drama last month, ilang linggo din akong nagki-crave ng instant noodles, lalo na yung ramen na nakikita ko sa mga koreans. Parang ang sarap lang kasi eh. Ang layo naman kasi ng Asian store dito eh. Kaya eto, nag experimento ako kanina. Yung pancit canton na nakatambay sa pantry, ginawa kong noodle soup. haha Pero syempre hindi ko ginamit ang original ingredients ng pancit canton, hindi naman kasi pwedeng gawing soup yun. haha Kaya gumawa ako ng chicken broth, syempre ginoogle ko muna para sigurado, tas kung ano-anong nilagay ko na pampalasa. Naubos ko naman kahit hindi ko na-achieve ang lasang gusto kong ma-achieve. wahaha Okay na rin, solve na yung cravings ko. :))

Pagkatapos kong kumain, dumating si Tito. May dala-dalang isang box ng pizza. Inaya naman akong kumain, syempre naman pizza na yun tatanggihan ko pa? Syempre kumain ulit ako. Tas eto, busog na ako. Sorry po Lord, gluttony na ito, what a deadly sin. tsk tsk. Sige bye! Mamaya naman ulit. haha ;)

posted 2 weeks ago @ 02 Apr 2014 with 1 note
xpersonal kong storya xasian life xnoodles xpicture xselfie xtagalog post

Last night’s screen shot. Nagselfie na naman while on Skype. Dahil may headband siya, eh dapat meron din ako. haha ^_^

posted 2 weeks ago @ 02 Apr 2014 with 7 notes
xpersonal xpicture xwith the gf xskype xscreenshot xselfie