Grabe, hindi talaga ako makapaniwala sa mga naririnig kong balita galing sa pamilya ko sa Pinas. Gusto kong ikwento ang mga pangyayari para magsilbing aral ito sa iba. Hindi ko alam kung paano kakapulutan ng aral ito, pero sana kahit papaano, maprotektahan niyo ang mga bata sa paligid niyo.
Dahil maselan at confidential ang storyang ito, hindi ko na papangalanan ang mga taong nasasangkot.

Tungkol ito sa kapitbahay namin. Isang pamilya, mahirap lamang sila, isang-kahig isang-tuka kumbaga. Yung tatay nila parang walang pakialam sa mga anak niya, laging naglalasing. Simula nung mamatay ang asawa niya sa cancer, parang naging palaboy-laboy na lang ang pito nilang mga anak. Nakakaawa yung mga bata kasi ang papayat at walang pinag-aralan. Imbes kasi na ipambili ng ulam at bigas ang kinikitang pera ng tatay nila, eh kulang pa ito sa pambili niya ng alak. Ayan ang intro ng buhay nila, base sa mga napapansin at nakikita namin noon. Paminsan-minsan, nag-aambag ang mga pamilya ko para mapakain ang mga bata, kasi maliliit pa. Halos nasa elementarya pa lang lahat ang mga edad nila. Hindi nga lang makapag-aral dahil walang pambili ng lapis at papel. Hindi rin makapasok sa eskwelahan dahil lahat ng oras nila iniuukol lang nila sa paghahanap ng mauulam para sa hapunan nila, kung minsan janitor fish o di kaya’y ligaw na palaka sa tubuhan. Haay. Tas ang tatay nila may oras pang maglasing noh? Kainis diba?

Pero eto ang mas nakakainis diyan. Yung 10-anyos na batang babae, ginagalaw pala ng kanyang walang kwentang tatay. Hindi lang yun, pati ang 20-anyos niyang pinsan ginagalaw din siya. And wait there’s more, pati yung 40-anyos niyang tiyuhin na pinsan ng nanay niya, ginagalaw din siya. Hindi lang basta pag-galaw ang ginagawa ng mga hinayupak na mga kalalakihang ito sa bata, kundi worst case scenario talaga. Sa tuwing ginagawa daw sa kanya iyon, hindi siya makasigaw o makahingi ng tulong, dahil pinagbabantaan daw siya at nilalagyan ng busal sa bibig. Grabe lang talaga, mga baboy talaga yung mga lalaking yun. Biruin mo, batang babae, pasekreto nilang ginagahasa. Tang ina diba? Hanggang sa itong bata’y hindi na makapagsalita ng maayos, natrauma sa lahat ng pinagagawa sa kanya. Nakakaawa lang talaga.

Paano namin nalaman? Dahil yung panganay niyang kapatid, nagsimulang magduda na baka nga ginagawa ng tiyuhin nya yun sa kapatid niyang babae. Akala niya tiyuhin niya lang ang gumagawa nito sa kapatid niya. Wala pa siyang kamalay-malay na pati tatay at pinsan niya ginagawa din yun. Minsan siyang naglasing, pinagsigaw-sigawan niya yung tiyuhin niya, so nagka-idea ngayon yung pamilya ko dahil narinig yung mga pinagsasabi niya. Dahil social worker sa DSWD ang pinsan ko, tinanong yung batang babae, napaamin siya, kiniwento nya ang lahat. Sa awa ng Diyos, malaya na yung bata sa kamay ng malupit at mapagsamantala niyang pamilya, nasa kamay na siya ngayon ng DSWD. Kung saan doon may matutulugan siya ng maayos, at makakain ng maayos. Yung iba niyang mga kapatid ay ginagawan na rin ng paraan ng pinsan ko para makuha na rin sila ng DSWD.

Yung tatay at tiyuhin niya ngayon ay nagtatago, kung saan man. Hindi raw umuuwi ng bahay sa ngayon, dahil takot na mabugbug ng mga kamag-anak ko dun. haha Ang pinsan niya naman, ganun din, hindi pa nakakauwi. Ipapakulong daw talaga sila ng iba pang pamilya nila na nakakaalam na sa buong pangyayari. At hindi lang yan ha, pati yung dalawang bunsong kapatid na lalaki, ginagawa din yun. Siguro, sa tingin ko’y nacurious ang mga ito sa mga nakikita nila sa paligid nila o sa bahay nila mismo, kaya ginagaya din nila at ginawa sa isa’t isa to. Grabe, maaawa ka nalang talaga sa mga bata. Pinanganak sila not out of love but because of sexual frustration ng tatay nila, eh dahil patay na yung nanay kaya sa anak naman ngayon? Tang ina lang.

Mamatay na yung mga taong ganun, yung mabura na sana sila sa mundo. Kainis lang diba? Tang ina! haha Parang apektado talaga ako noh? Syempre naman, nakakaapekto talaga yun sa tao kapag inosenteng bata na yung minomolestya ng walang kalaban-laban. Alam ko maraming mga ganitong kaso sa buong mundo, ang iba nga eh mas malala pa. Pero ano ba naman ang karapatan nating ikompara ito sa ibang pangyayari. Para sakin, karumaldumal na krimen to, na kelangan maparusahan ang mga gumagawa nito.

Kung meron man sa inyong nakakaalam o naghihinala na may katarantaduhang ginagawa ang kapitbahay nyo o maging sa pamilya niyo o kung sino man, huwag kayong matakot na makialam sa problema ng iba. Hindi masama ang tumulong sa nangangailangan lalo na’t biktima ng kahayupan. Kasi malay mo, baka gusto nang kumawala ng biktima sa kamay ng mapagsamantala, at kelangan niya lang ng tutulong sa kanya, ipagkakait mo pa ba yun dahil takot kang madamay? Hahayaan mo lang ba na magpatuloy ang mga ganitong krimen at mabuhay ng malaya ang mga walang hiyang rapist na yun? Sino sila para katakutan? Dahil ako, kahit malagay pa sa piligro ang buhay ko, kung alam kong may mga tao sa paligid ko na inaalipusta ng iba, lalo na ang walang kamuwang-muwang na bata, kaibigan man o kamag-anak, di ako magdadalawang isip na ipagtanggol sila. Pramis!

posted 3 hours ago @ 23 Apr 2014 with 1 note
xtagalog xbalita xtang-ina xpedophiles xmga gago

Lahat naman tayo may karapatang magkamali eh. Hindi naman tayo perpekto, Tao lang din naman tayo, nagkakasala kung minsan.
Pero hindi ko lang maintindihan yung iba, parang ginawa na nilang hobby yung magkasala, tas kapag nahuli tsaka magsisisi. tsk tsk.

posted 6 hours ago @ 23 Apr 2014 with 1 note
xthoughts xtagalog xmagkasala xpagkakamali xhobby na lang ngayon

Napahaba ang tulog ko ngayon, dahil parang nag-enjoy ako sa napanaginipan ko. Grabe lang, parang totoo kasi eh. Nagka-zombie apocalypse daw sa Pilipinas. So parang andun daw ako kasama ang mga pinsan ko. Ang weird lang ng setting, kasi nasa unfamiliar house kami, nasa unfamiliar city, nasa unfamiliar bus, tas nasa unfamiliar apartment. LOL ang daming unfamiliar places na pinuntahan. Syempre kasi, nagtitinakbuhan ang mga tao, kaya palipat-lipat kami ng lugar. Eto na siguro ang epekto ng kakapanood ko ng mga palabas na may mga zombies.

Isa pang weird na nangyari eh kasama ko daw si Guia at mga pinsan niya. Tas nagsama-sama daw kami dun sa pinakahighest floor ng apartment ng mga pinsan niya. Naglock kami ng doors, mga bintana double lock din. Nag off kami ng lights at hindi kami nag-ingay. May mga crowbar kaming dala, may rake, pala, mga ano-ano pang tools, tas yung isa samin may pistol. Sabi ko pa daw “Make sure to aim for the head” hahaha

Tapos sabi ko, kelangan gayahin namin yung mga zombies, especially yung amoy nila. Amoy masangsang na patay. So hindi namin alam kung paano namin nagawa ang amoy na yun at ipinahid sa sarili namin. Haha it’s kinda funny to think na ako talaga ang naging leader nila at naging protector nila sa ganung sitwasyon. Sinasabihan ko pa sila na maging matapang at kahit anong mangyari wag pangunahan ng takot at kaba. hahaha Eh minsan, ako nga yung natatakot sa totoong buhay eh LOL

Tas kinaumagahan, parang naghupa na ang mga zombies. Parang hindi ko alam kung nagpahinga ba sila at bigla silang nawala. Parang naging werewolf ba, sa gabi lang lumalabas at kabilugan ng buwan. haha So ayun, pumunta kami ng mga convenient store, para kumuha ng makakain at mga gamit at energency kit. Lumipat na kami ng apartment, doon kami sa mas malayo at mataas na lugar. Marami pang buhay na tao dun, so naisip namin mas safe dun. Basta nasa parang loob kami ng malaking bakod na may mga barb wire sa paligid. May mga kasama naman kami sa loob. Tas ayun, may mga tao pang dumating pero parang mga traitor sila kumbaga. Gusto nilang maging zombie, at gusto nila kaming patayin. LOL Kaya ayun, naghihintay silang kagatin ng mga zombies para kami naman ang pagpyestahan nila. Mga ulol ba sila? Gusto nila magpakamatay? hahaha Yung huling natatandaan ko lang sa panaginip eh pinagsabihan ko daw mga kasama ko na huwag na lang pansinin ang mga mokong na yun sa labas, desisyon nila yun eh. Tas naputol na panaginip ko, hindi pa man lang nagsisimula ang laban. haha

Baka may continuation pa mamayang gabi sa panaginip ko. haha Update ko na lang kayo, kung may masipag man na nagbasa nito. haha Sige, bye! :))

posted 1 day ago @ 22 Apr 2014 with 1 note
xpanaginip xtagalog xzombie apocalypse xhahaha funny!

There are billions of people in this planet, there are thousands of cities around me, there are hundreds of things that can make me happy, yet I don’t want to explore.
Those other people, cities, things, wouldn’t be worth exploring when I don’t have someone like you to be with. So I’ll wait for you and let’s explore everything together.

posted 2 days ago @ 21 Apr 2014 with 4 notes
xthoughts xexploring the world together xenglish

I like the idea of hugging you from behind while you’re cooking our favorite dish or when you’re just standing there chopping onions. Not because I want to disrupt you from what you’re doing, but I just like to hug you when you least expect it.
I like the idea of holding your hand while we’re watching our favorite show on TV or when we’re on a theater watching a movie. Well, it’s because your hands are so soft that I’d rather hold for the entire time than a greasy pop corn.
I like the idea of randomly kissing you anywhere in your face, especially on your cheeks or forehead. I couldn’t really explain why I chose them, maybe because I want to shower your face with kisses first before passionately kissing your pinky lips.
I like the idea of sitting beside you wherever we are, because right then I feel secure that you’re always by my side.
I like the idea of driving from cities to cities when I’m with you, listening to our favorite songs together on our beloved car, traveling together to places that we haven’t been before.
I like the idea of taking pictures with you, anywhere we want, any pose we’d like to be, any time we feel like it.
I like the idea of sleeping at night when I know you’re the last person I’d see and the first one to wake up to.
I like the idea of having to hold my future by my side, my bestfriend, my girlfriend, my wife. I like the idea of us getting married someday, in a beautiful garden or beach, or anywhere you’d choose.
I like the idea of seeing my your beautiful face everyday, taking care of one another and never leaving each others side. I like the idea of growing old with you and still madly in love with you.

Even though these are just bunch of ideas, they serve as bunch of memories for me, to hope for and to dream of. There were lots and lots that I could still think of, but for now, those are my favorites. I’d wish for them to happen real soon, because the happiness that these ideas bring is the exact happiness I was rooting for.

posted 2 days ago @ 21 Apr 2014 with 1 note
xthoughts xideas xenglish xlove xmemories

We’ve been in this long distance relationship for a year now. And to tell you guys the truth, it wasnt an easy ride. It was one heck of a freakin rollercoaster (level of extreme: to the highest level) ride. We’ve been through ups and downs. There are times that we fight and argue almost every single day. There are days when we dont talk. There are nights when we cry and cry for hours. There some point when we almost gave up. But you know what saved us? It was the “unconditional love” that we both promise to keep and hold unto. It was our love for each other that saved us and and pushed us to keep going.

Distance didnt become a big factor in our relationship. Yes, there are times when we would just cry because we wanted to be in each other arms. But that’s just normal. Of course, everyone in this kind of relationship would always wish and hope to finally be in each other arms. But luckily for us, that eagerness to be together didnt have a negative effect on our relationship. Instead, that eagerness served as a motivation for us to work harder in our relationship and in our goals.

This had been a tough ride for both of us. It was a year full of ups and downs. But in the end, we still managed to get through all of it. We survived a year of being in a long distance kind of relationship. We maintained to keep the love, the effort, the relationship, and all the things that’s keeping us bounded together. Though the arguements and the fights might had an effect on us but I was glad that the distance never stopped us from believing in the love that we promised to keep forever.

posted 2 days ago @ 21 Apr 2014 with 2 notes
xfrom guia xldr xlong distance love xpersonal

"What if I dont want to continue anymore.. Like I dont want this relationship anymore," I said.

You paused for a while. I felt sadness in the way you heavily breathe on the phone. Then after a few seconds, you said, “Then there’s nothing I can do about it. I can’t force you to stay if you’ve already decided that you dont want this relationship anymore. I know this relationship is not easy to handle. It never was and it will never be. So I would totally understand if you dont want to stay anymore. And another thing is that you also have to consider your family. I know they will never like me. They will not accept me. And I would totally understand if you will choose them over me.”

Those words hit me directly into my heart like a sharp knife. My stupid, random question hurt you. I know it did because while you’re saying those words, all I felt was pain. I gave you an idea that someday I might get to point where I will get tired of this relationship and eventually I might just give it up. Oh Nic, I’m sorry for bringing that stupid question up. I’m sorry if I unintentionally hurt you. I’m sorry if I made you feel bad. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. That question just came out of nowhere and I have no intention of planting any negative thoughts in your mind. Just like what I said before, “I will never leave you. I will never get tired in you, in us, and in this relationship. I will fight for you and for us. We will reach this destination called forever.” So please forgive me if I said those words and if I ever gave you an idea that I was on the point of giving up. I will never do that because the word “love” wouldnt be as magical and meaningful as it is now without you. I love you so much.

posted 2 days ago @ 21 Apr 2014 with 1 note
xfrom guia xlong post xpersonal xenglish

I love :

•How you can make me smile just by simply saying “I love you Baby”
•How you can make me laugh with your silly jokes
•How you can make me cry and laugh both at the same time
•How you can surprise me in the most unexpected way
•How you can make me feel better just by assuring me that you’ll always be there for me
•How you’re always there to cheer me up every time I dont achieve the score that I was expecting from my test
•How you’re always making sure that I eat on the right time
•How you’re always there to remind me of my unfinished school works
•How you always try your very best to be the the most perfect lover in this world just to prove how much you love me
•How you always tell me that you wouldnt trade me for anything/anyone in this world
•And lastly, how you make me feel that I am more than enough.. That I dont need to prove myself because you’re happy with what I have and what I can give to you and to this relationship.

There are hundreds more on the list but I just wouldnt mention it all because (1)it would take up all the space in the dashboard, (2)some people will get annoyed by it because it’s too long lol, (3)people will have an idea of who you really are [I’m scared that they might fall for you the way I did], and lastly (4)the complete list of the “things I love about you” is too precious to be posted in here lol

posted 2 days ago @ 21 Apr 2014 with 2 notes
xfrom guia xpersonal xenglish xlove xlist

I tried to be a bit creative today.

Doing a surprise on the actual anniversary day is too mainstream, so I decided to surprise Nic 5 days after our anniversary.

And yeah, art is not really my thing but I really tried my best to be extra creative today just to surprise Nic. I’m glad that she really liked it.

I love you baby! Happy 370 Days!

posted 2 days ago @ 21 Apr 2014 with 2 notes
xfrom guia xpicture xlove x370 days

Selfie time with a new haircut. Ha! 😊

posted 2 days ago @ 21 Apr 2014 with 1 note
xpersonal xhaircut xundercut xselfie xpicture